frustration

Once, I had a MSN name:

"And tonight I feel like the societal reject I was always told I was"

And I'm feeling the same.

I hate secret knowledge, I hate knowing people's darkness, I hate being ignored, I hate feeling used.

And sometimes I wish I was just vindicative enough to use the former statements as a retaliation to the latter statements and just fucking someone over, cause I have the ability to do so. But, alas, I'm not that much of a bitch.

But, a part of me knows that its the game I play that fucks me over in the end. So maybe I should just quit playing it.