[Jamie's Innerworkings] "Slightly Bored and Severely Confused"

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Song (will I guess hymn) for the week

In light of Christmas (which, yes, was yesterday) I gave you the lyrics to my favourtist Christmas Hymn

O Come, O Come, Emmanuel


O come, O come, Emmanuel
And ransom captive Israel
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Rod of Jesse, free
Thine own from Satan's tyranny
From depths of Hell Thy people save
And give them victory o'er the grave
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Day-Spring, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death's dark shadows put to flight.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Key of David, come,
And open wide our heavenly home;
Make safe the way that leads on high,
And close the path to misery.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, O come, Thou Lord of might,
Who to Thy tribes, on Sinai's height,
In ancient times did'st give the Law,
In cloud, and majesty and awe.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Christmas Carols for the Psychologically challenged

1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear?

2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Queens Disoriented Are

3. Amnesia --- I Don't Know if I'll be Home for Christmas

4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me

5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and
Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and Fire
Hydrants and ...

6. Paranoid --- Santa Claus is Coming to Get Me

7. Borderline Personality Disorder --- Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire

8 . Full Personality Disorder-- You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I'm
Gonna Pout, Maybe I'll tell You Why~

9. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder ---Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle
Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells .

10. Agoraphobia --- I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day But Wouldn't Leave
My House

11. Senile Dementia --- Walking in a Winter Wonderland Miles From My House
in My Slippers and Robe

12. Oppositional Defiant Disorder --- I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus So I
Burned Down the House

13. Social Anxiety Disorder --- Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas
>While I Sit Here and Hyperventilate

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

weekly song (cause I can't manage to post on Monday)

interesting tidbit at bottom

The Other Man - Sloan

You know he's not the one for you
But that's no fault of mine
He knows that I'm a friend of yours
But doesn't know I've crossed the line
I know you've got a man in the picture
But it hasn't stopped me yet
We've all be in one situation or another
We regret
Now I'm the other man
No one's rooting for me
If I'm the other man
Nature will abhor me
You know I wanna keep my distance
'Cause it's happening anyway
He knows you're gonna drift apart
And there's nothing he can say
I know that he's a stand up guy
But that's none of my concern
We've all been in one situation or another
It's my turn
To be the other man
No one sympathises
When you're the other man
Everyone despises
He's gonna find out that the rumours are true
Though they are still unbeknownst to you
He'll find out so I'll tell you because
You gotta find out before he does
I know you've got a man in the picture
But it hasn't stopped me yet
We've all be in one situation or another
We regret
Now I'm the other man
No one's rooting for me
If I'm the other man
Nature will abhor me
Yeah
No one sympathises
When you're the other man
Everyone despises
Yeah
We've all been in one situation or another
We've all been in one situation or another
We've all been in one situation or another




Interesting tidbit: I play the violin in this music video

Saturday, December 16, 2006

I haven't done a lot of these

100 Questions:
1. Name: Jamie
2. Middle Names: Amanda Ley
3. Province: Ontario
4. Place of Birth: Toronto East General Hospital
5. Zodiac Sign: Virgo
6. Male or Female: Female
7. Bus most commonly taken: 35 Jane
8. School: none at the moment
9. Occupation: Receptionist/Office Admin and babysitting
10. Initials: JALA (though my aunts nickname for me is 'my gal jal' ... if she ever uses its my last name, its cause she is uber pissed and i have 10 seconds to run)
11. Screen Name: currently ... to make yourself forget
-Your Appearance-
12. Hair Color: Brown
13. Hair Length: just below shoulders
14. Eye color: hazel green
15. Best Feature: my smile
16. Height: 5'1
17. Braces: yep
18. Glasses: none
19. Age: 21
20. Diploma: I have my highschool and various other ones i got through my volunteering
-Your 'Firsts'-
22. First best friend: Pamela Shields
23. First Award: the first one I remember was in grade school, for selling the most chocolate bars.
24. First Sport You Joined: swimming!
25. First thing you did today: called Aron
26. First Real vacation: Calgary, fall of 05
27. First thing you said when you were a baby: not sure, but I stopped talking for like 2 months after I started talking
28. First Love: Travis
- Favourites -
29. Movie: 10 things i hate about you
30. TV Show: Buffy, CSI, Dead Like Me
32. Artist: Counting crows maybe at the moment
33. Place to shop: Reitmans and Old Navy
34. Food: Sushi (but only the vegetarian kind)
35. Season: Fall
36. Candy: sour ju jubes maybe
37. Sport: swimming or figure skating
38. Restaurant: east side marios, sushi on bloor
39. Favorite Clothing: I'm not really sure
40. Store: didn't I answer this already
41. School Subject: english
42. Animal: cat
43. Book: the luckiest girl in the world (steven levenkron)
44. Magazine: don't really read them
-Currently-
45. Doing before you started this survey: talking to Missina
47. Single or Taken: single
48. Crying about: my extremely stupid decision (but, um ... its not making me cry, but if i were crying it would be about the upcoming confrontation)
49. Eating: nothing yet
50. Drinking: nada
53. Listening To: counting crows - anna begins (on repeat)
54. Thinking About: said confrontation, hanging out with aron, wanting to get my hair cut
55. Wanting: more sleep
56. Watching: the... computer screen
-Future-
57. Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?: done school
58. Kids?: I don't want them
59. Want to be Married: not particularily
60. Careers in Mind: no idea
-Which is Better with the Opposite Sex-
63. Hair color: darke
64. Hair length: I like the scruffy look
65. Eye color: no preference
66. Personality or Looks: personality
67. Cute or sexy: i choose cute ... down to earth kind of cool.
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes.
69. Hugs or Kisses: hugs
70. Short or Tall: taller than me, but thats not a surprise who isn't?
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Good or Bad: I like a little rebel in 'em
74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship: right now ... I'm sporting the hook up scene, but starting to have a change of heart.
76. Harley or Car: car
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: trouble maker
-Have you ever-
78. Kissed a stranger: yes
79. Smoked: yes
80. Streaked: yes
81. Ran Away From Home: yes
82. Broken a bone: yes
83. Got an X-ray: yes
84. Got a broken bone: yes
85. Broke Someones Heart: yes
86. Dumped someone: yes
87. Cried When Someone Died: yes.
88. Cried At School: yes
-Do You Believe In-
89. God: yes
90. Miracles: maybe
91. Love at First sight: not really
92. Ghosts: not sure
93. Aliens: nope
94. Soul Mates: I think there are special connections that can never be found elsewhere
95. Heaven: Yes
96. Hell: Yes
98. Kissing on The First Date: yes
99. Horoscopes: nopers
-Answer Truthfully-
100. Is there someone you're thinking about right now?: yes.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Somewhere it is still Monday ...

Here is the song:

Everything - Lifehouse

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?





Sometimes, I wish to be back in youth group, being led in worship to this song. Sometimes I think, I just need to hear him sing it again. But I know it won't be the same, cause ... really ... thats where all the problems began.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

D'aw

So the mom of the kids I babysit, Allison, graduated and became a legit Firefighter on Thursday. Her husband, Shaun, is also a firefighter... this picture is just precious, Anna, their 2.5 year old daughter is just showing how proud she is of her mom :)

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

... erm song for a Monday Wednesday

It was a hectic weekend ... played DnD till 130 or so, then came home, spent some time chatting on MSN and confirming plans to go holiday shopping with the Kinsinator at 10am the next morning. Went to bed at the ungodly hour of 4am. I recall waking up at 9, knowing I had to be someone, but saying I didn't need to work today. Then it hit me in my sleep, I rolled over and it was 10:26am, in a record time of 4 minutes.. I got dressed, then redressed (I had accidentally went commando the first time), left two MSN messages (one to said kinsinator apologizing incase I missed her). Making it to Bathurst Station at 11am, just as she was heading down the stairs to go home.

We visited Kensington, and my soon becoming favourite market store Roach O Rama ... even for you straight cut people, the hotbox cafe in the back makes some mad delicious smoothies.. so live a little 'eh?

And we endured the Eaton Centre, where I was much more successful in the mission that was "Christmas shopping" having bought for pretty much anyone else that was needed to buy for, while realized that Calvin Klein socks are ridiciliously expensive (but was what was requested by my hard to shop for older cousin Kim).

Saturday night I hung out with Aron playing Wii sports and watching him play Zelda, ended up leaving sometime Sunday evening. I think I disgruntled some housemates of his *shrug* whatevs.

Then I babysat Sunday night.


With all that said, I bring you Monday's song today:

"Only Love" by Heather Nova

Love

I used to think that I knew what we needed
I just assumed we would always be fine
Now I don't think that we lost the feeling
But we, let everything build up inside

It's only love
But love, should make us strong
It's only love
But love, has been hurting so long

What a challenge, honesty
What a struggle to learn to speak
Who would've thought that pretending was easier

It's only love
But love, should make us strong
It's only love
But love, has been hurting so long

And it's all, a part of me
It tears at my heart
Only love
And it's all an eternity
Hoping to learn
Only love

Love

There's a part of you I'm trying to reach
Still a part I don't know
Tell me, is devotion a gift or a thief
Do you wish I'd let go

It's only love
But love, should make us strong
It's only love
But love, has been hurting so long

And it's all, a part of me
It tears at my heart
Only love
And it's all, eternity
Hoping to learn
Only love

Only love, only love
Only love, only love, only love, only
Only love, only love, only love, only love
Love, only love