Messed up artwork and crosswalks are NOT an optional stop

Before I rant, I thought this situation was funny. A friend and I were talking about things that got us in trouble in school, and I mentioned my grade 6 "self portrait" (supposed to draw your inner self) of a vampire with the slogan "blood, you got to love it" (I was convinced I was a vampire) and you know, needless to say it didn't get put up on the wall and instead got a parent/teacher meeting. But I think her story tops mine:

"LOL . I CONVINCED THIS ONE GIRL IN MY CLASS THAT I WAS A DAYWALKER. AND I DID GET THE OL PARENT INTERVIEW FOR DRAWING PICTURES OF SATANCLAWS. HE DELIVERED SEVERED HEADS INSTEAD OF PRESENTS. MY GOD WAS I A FUCKED UP KID" (Missina, I for some reason thought of you)

With that humourous story out of the way, allow me to rant.

Crosswalks.

There is a crosswalk by my work, and really the only option for "safe" crossing unless I want to walk 5 minutes north or south to get a set of lights. But apparently, pressing the button, waiting a moment and beginning to cross is not safe, as I was almost hit by a stupid driver this morning, who apparently thought stopping was optional. Its not the first time, usually I have to play the game of "hmm, I wonder if this car is going to actually stop".

And let me tell you, asshole, take your head out of your ass, get off your fucking cellphone and PAY ATTENTION. Stopping halfway through the crosswalk, and then having the nerve to signal for me to cross with a look that I've been a TERRIBLE inconvience is not okay. I didn't just almost hit your car, you almost hit me. Dick.

Goodbye Guido

Tom's mom (Guido's original owner) came and picked up Guido half an hour ago. I didn't know it would hurt this much ... and thats not even factoring the awesome set of back claw scratches I now have on my thigh and arms.

I tried cuddling with her today, but she would have none of it. When I took the cage out an hour ago, she was under my bed. And when I tried to get her to put her in, she would run away from me and start rubbing herself against everything.

I won't forget you Gweeds, don't you worry.

Another song

Its sad and depressing, but for some reason ...

Long Way to Happy - Pink

One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Do you know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottem of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Matters of the heart, or the mind, or maybe its just hormones

I ran into Malcolm last night ... and I don't know what to make of things.

3 days ago we decided (via text)that it was just a bad time to start something ... last night I slept in his arms.

Lets not mention the profession of love to my bestfriend less than 12 hours earlier (he let me down gently, don't worry).

I wish I knew what I wanted.

A personality flaw?

Its not that I've just come to realize this, or that I necessary feel that I need to justify myself. But I'd like to explain, its more for my benefit than yours.

I don't know how to just "let things go", when things are unclear, I need clarity/closure whether negative or positive, but to leave it in the air, it just drives me insane.

For example, a situation like the one with Malcolm. I didn't follow Jeff's advice. I just, I don't know, its common courtesy to not just ignore someone. I'd never do it someone else, leave them to hang, and so I don't know how people can do it to others. And so, I continue to keep in contact ... not because I think its going to change anything but because I want them to say something. I do know enough to realize that someone isn't interested, however, I want them to say it. I want that closure.

And so, I'd really just rather be told to fuck off than to be just straight up ignored. I can "take a hint", but I think people shouldn't have to read between the lines. Whatever happened to honesty and straightforwardness?

I know I expect too much from people as a whole, because I understand its just how things go. Doesn't mean I have to accept it.

Because, being felt like you are being ignored is one of the worse feelings in the world.

ZeFrank

So my friend Aron introduced me to a videoblogger (is that the term) called ZeFrank. A little late in the game, as his last show was on Friday ... but there is a year of archives. To kickstart you, this is my favourite so far: click here

owie owie owie

I don't know what I've done but my big toe KILLS, I can walk, so I'm not convinced its broken. But having never broken my toe I can't say for sure. But walking all hurt like is also hurting my calf and ankle.

Ow.

Venting 2.0

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

*expletive* *expletive* *expletive*

... breakdown finished, continue on your way.

New hair ... :o

Some lyrics to read over

These are the lyrics to my friend Michelle's song called Absolute. She considers this her thesis for bible college.

Absolute - Michelle Luxon

You ask me how I'm holding up through
All these trials I'm facing
Your voice is laced with enthusiasm
For the life that you think I've chosen.
And your questions tell more about you
Than my answers are sure to do
About me and my comfortability
With a faith born out of conformity.

Only fools are certain and immovable
Like it's a sin to be thinking
That nothing's absolute.
Where's the faith, where's belief?
You can't tie it down.

Don't give me the bible.
'Cause I wouldn't want anyone
To take one line I have said
And give it a strictly literal bent
You could take it outta context.
Take it outta meaning
Put it in another language
And tell me what I am saying.

You can't release someone who
Knows that they are free
You can't have a system without corruption
Their religion is a quotation
And we all pay for conformity in the end.

"Clang clang rattle bing bang gonna make my noise all day..."

No ... you're not! (in the style of Teen Girl Squad)

Confused? Let me explain.

The woman in the apartment below mine is ridicilious, she plays her music at such a volume that it is louder in MY apartment, than the volume at which I play my own music at.

On average I'm woken up 3 mornings a week by her music (she starts playing it at about 11am, I don't have to be up till noon). And its been like that for a year.

Recently, I've gotten fed up and decided to do a little searching and figure out if there was something I could do to make it stop. So I emailed the city about noise by laws and part of the response I got was as follows:

The first step you should take is to approach the property manager
again and explain your concerns. Show him/her a copy of this e-mail or a
copy of the Noise Bylaw as well. Explain that if no action is taken by
them, you will be asking the City to enforce the Noise Bylaw.

You can find a copy of the City of Toronto Municipal Code Chapter 591,
Noise on our Web site at
http://www.toronto.ca/legdocs/municode/1184_591.pdf

The Noise Chapter is broken up into four main parts as follows:
1. General Prohibition
"No person shall make, cause or permit noise or vibration, at any time,
which is likely to disturb the quiet, peace, rest, enjoyment, comfort or
convenience of the inhabitants of the City."

This general prohibition applies in your case.

So with this knowledge in hand, the next time I was woken up I went down to her apartment, knocked for two minutes (when the song ended she was able to hear me) and just politely (yes ... politely, I know you may doubt it, but I was nice) explained that her music wakes me up as it is very loud in my bedroom and if she could turn it down some. She did, but I could still hear it in my apartment but not well enough to sing along to it anymore.

I was doing alright, it wasn't that bad. Then Monday happened. I was woken up at 9:25 IN THE MORNING to "you're beautiful ... you're beautiful its true" blaring in my apartment. I put on my housecoat and went straight to my supers and told them they had to go do something about it.

But, I've had enough ... I gave my supers a letter yesterday saying that if it happened again, noise complaints were going to start happening and complaints to the property management. And lucky me, I just happen to be friendly with a police man :)

! erm &!

Someone called and was like the name is "Smith ampersand Smith" ... I had to double check that I knew what ampersand [&] meant. Too classy to use the description "the and symbol".

Prepare for Mass Chaos!!!!!

The removal of the walk left stand right signs.

I'll still be the one loudly saying "excuse me" to the ignorami (plural of ignoramus) who stand on BOTH sides.

For those who thought I was exaggerating

When I said I was the only white kid in my classes ... I have proof :)

What Jamie is listening to on repeat currently ...

Love Will Come Through - Travis (Sarah introduced me to this song)

If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and keep it alive
Cause it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone in this lie

So look up
Take it away
Don't look da-da-da- down the mountain

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you

Well I stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I got a feeling it's right

If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no makebelieving
The sound of the wings of the flight of a dove

Take it away
Don't look da-da-da down the mountain
If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return anyone anything anyhow...

So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you

So look up
Take it away
Don't look da-da-da- down

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return anyone anything anyhow...

So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you

Love will come through
Love will come through
Love will come through

I'm back and once again I left good weather

So, at 10:00pm last night Missina and I landed at Pearson. Got our bags, got a taxi limo and got the hell on our way home (or to my home and then she continued the trip back to her place via TTC).

I find it kind of funny that when I left Toronto it was so nice and I was like, "man, I be so crazy to be going to Manitoba and Northern Alberta", Calgary will be experiencing a chinook this weekend and seeing tempatures of 12 degrees, I got caught in a snow storm today. Honestly to get from Lawrence and Dufferin to 2 stops past Lawrence and Dufferin took 30 MINUTES! When I decided to get off the bus and just walk.

We managed to pretty much travel the length of Alberta in our 3 days of travel time (we flew back to Ontario on the 4th day) take a look:

Day 1: Fort McMurray to Plamondon, 258km (approx. 3hrs)


Day 2: Plamondon to Edmonton, 203km (approx 2.5hrs)


Day 3 in the morning (left at 6:30am): Edmonton to Coleman (in Crows Nest Pass) 513km (approx 5hrs15mins)


Day 3 in the afternoon (left at like 4:30pmish): Coleman to Calgary 220kms (approx 2.5hrs)



The overall view:


Pictures to follow at a later date.